Is it that some seize the opportunity? That they go for it without the fear of judgement? Or is it simply because they can, they have everything we aspire to be better within them.

I feel that I lack that, not the seizing the opportunity but the confidence to do it, to know that I am okay to do it.

It sucks, I on the other hand try hard to succeedd and ultimately fail. On the other hand they meet today and today they leave.

To me its sad, quite sickning. It's more the jealous aspect that makes me sick, that fact that I carry myself in that way and that I can't go ahead with things. That I lack the looks and the confidence. It makes me sad.

I probably will never get my hands on anything soon. But maybe one day that girl will realize that what they shared wasnt truth, and until someone treats them bad then they'll hopefully understand what good was.