Its working, but will it last?

Whats happened the last few days is unexplainable; but of course I will try.

The moods and the amounts of emotions have been insane. People have argued, ignored, poured their hearts out and even swore to stop talking. But in the end it's worked itself out, because mature people have done what they had to do and talked.

But yet although everything has been working and it all seems perfect, I know something is not fully clicking in. Individuals are choosing to omit something, and I could understand why.

Although I understand it, it causes this unsettledness feeling in my stomach and it causes this nervousness that is unexplainable. It's weird because in my head nothing is bothering me, but in my unconsciousness something is, and it attempts to present itself in a weird form.

Subject change.
I've caused a few different problems lately, only because I haven't been able to fully display my feelings toward this moment in my life where things are going to begin to change way to fast. In this moment i'm going through learning and I'm still learning to cope with the concept of leaving family,friends, and me house behind for things I need to actually do. What bothers me is the fact that I'm afraid of what will happen at home when I'm gone? Who is going to be there for me? In my absence will I be replaced? Will things change so much that I will lose what I hold so dear? I really no one can understand this feeling, and in my attempts to help people understand its just caused anger and arguments from others.

I pray and hope that things in my life don't change in bad ways, that things continue to be good and that those who I hold dear in my life remain there with open arms.